Episodes

Mark Hettinger had a calling to serve others. Entering into a life of service to help others does not mean you are robotic and void of a personal life. Aside from being a great fireman, Marc is also a very proud gay man. This in no way impedes his ability to do the work that is required. We are often taught not to bring our personal lives into our jobs, until our personal lives are viewed by others as different. One’s sexual orientation does not define them, but allows them the ability to take t...

Charlie Cifarelli is one of the rare individuals alive today that has seen it all. After being born into hell and taking a step further down in the into the next level, Charlie was able to rise from the depths and sit in purgatory while he found some sort of balance. After a successful career as a corrections officer, then as the owner of a large trash business, Charlie was finally able to find his way into the light through a one eyed four-legged animal name Star. There is a bit of Charlie’s st...

Pastor Ron Lewis has been in the Christian ministry for over 30 years. Out of the ashes of the tragedy of 9/11 Every Nation‘s church was born from Pastor Lewises vision. His word of hope and community resonated through his belief in serendipitous life events that bring us closer to our faith. Reshaping tragedy has become a hallmark of how Pastor Lewis shapes his congregation’s vision of what you true belief should become. Today you will find him traveling the country spreading his word through s...

From a childhood in a neighborhood where the ending story could go either way, Mike Codella chose to take a career path to enforce the law rather than break it. Needing a change, Mike joined the NYPD in 1983 and never looked back. Truly believing in his life’s mission, to make a difference, he matriculated up the ladder in the dangerous world of undercover work in Alphabet City and Red Hook, Mike took to the street to leave them much safer than he left them. Working on high profile cases such as...

With Erica Blue and Catherine Angel Police are taught to take the pain and trauma they witnessed and buried deep never allowing it to resurface. This unhealthy behavior leads to some tragic outcomes. Blue suicide is at epidemic levels in police work has the highest suicide rate amongst any job. Erica Blue and Catherine Angel are in the studio to try to combat this growing problem inside the Police community with their organization Moment Of Silence. We learn some tools on how to open up any rac...

No matter what Seth chose to do in his life, he would’ve been successful. In seeking the intoxicating feeling of being the best, Seth chose a path that resulted in him serving 21 years of a 25 year sentence. Seth chose to use his time wisely receiving multiple college degrees, starting a publishing house, and penning 25 books. After his release, Seth took that wisely used time and energy to create films and documentaries. Now having his work featured on Netflix and various other media outlets, S...

We don’t realize how difficult a job police work can be. The difficult calls, the stress on their bodies, police were can take a toll on your physical and mental health. On this episode we welcome back Mike DePalma to discuss the suffering of police. All three of us know too well the difficulties, the highs, the lows, and the Suffering that police work involves. In the studio we deal with this topic and much the same way we deal with most topics, through laugh and humor just as we did when we we...

Kim D has it all. A strong woman who may seem on outward appearances to have a storied life, has seen her share of Suffering. From the loss of the love of her life to losing all anonymity on The Real Housewives of New Jersey, Kim has powered through it with her giant heart and no nonsense attitude. Kim’s perspective on fame and the reality of reality TV is a refreshing look on how to deal with the hurdles that you have to jump over in life. This fun episode will fill you with a range of emotions...

Tara Maddalone is one amazing woman who has the most infectious attitude in the face of incredible adversity. Tara had a life changing diagnosis of breast cancer followed by brain cancer. After the realization that their is a possibility that life is not as long as it was promised, Tara began her crusade to repair her health, spirit, life, and body back to better than before. She is a true inspiration that we all can learn from and gain strength. Find The Suffering Podcast The Suffering Podcast...

Part 2 the conclusion Elvin Hernandez found a dream career that he had chased his whole life. Just as his dream was being fulfilled and the mountain was climbed, Elvin's life changed in the blink of an eye. In May of 2015, at the residence of a cousin, the dream would be crushed. After a police involved shooting, the darkness took over and snatched Elvin's career. Down the rabbit hole he went ultimately leaving him alone and at the end of his rope. It wasn't until he was able to see that there ...

Elvin Hernandez found a dream career that he had chased his whole life. Just as his dream was being fulfilled and the mountain was climbed, Elvin's life changed in the blink of an eye. In May of 2015, at the residence of a cousin, the dream would be crushed. After a police involved shooting, the darkness took over and snatched Elvin's career. Down the rabbit hole he went ultimately leaving him alone and at the end of his rope. It wasn't until he was able to see that there is beauty on the other ...

Frankie "Steel" Pontillo, in a former life, was a Mafia Soldier in the notorious Columbo Crime Family in New York. After enduring Suffering and seeing the light, Frankie has made his transition to a new life by taking the lessons learned in his former life to rise with new perspective and appreciation in the value of what is around him today. There are some incredibly interesting, sad, and often humorous stories, this episode will grab you and draw you in as the life of La Cosa Nostra is not all...

There are rare opportunities in life to sit down with someone and have a candid, open and honest conversation about topics that are foreign to you and everything you've experienced. Ashley Turi is one of those rare people in this world willing to share her perspective on what its like to be trapped in the wrong skin and to finally realize that the gender she was born with is not her true gender. Ashley has transitioned into a woman but more importantly blossomed into a truly wonderful human bein...

We thrive on the interaction and support of our loyal following. Each week we take questions from the audience to get our guests perspective on difficult topics. Often there are too many to air or that may not be topical to the discussion at hand. On this episode we dive into some great questions from Social Media as we aptly title this The Suffering Of Social Media. This is a great discussion with of course the occasional side-track stories and conversations that you can expect from two dented ...

Kattia Roman has come to embody the American Dream by moving to this country and dealing with all the Suffering of coming into a foreign land were everything is strange. The struggles of starting a new life away from everything you knew as a child who experienced her own difficulties in her home country of Costa Rica to find new challenges to overcome in the United States. By having a positive outlook and looking for the good in the human heart, Kattia has learned to embrace the lifestyle of her...

Mike and I ask our guest week after week to bare their souls to us on air and it would be hypocritical to not do the same. On this episode we welcome back Heather Julia Campbell who has a set of unique talents as a Psychic Medium and Reiki Master to extract trauma from Us to see if we truly are living by example. This has been one of the most difficult episodes to record as we let out information that has never been publicly shared. Heather hits on topics and information that there is no way tha...

Chris Jaeger has spent a Military and Law Enforcement career rife with Suffering. It took him a long time to realize that Its OK to not be OK. Through many difficulties, Chris has chosen a path that is best for his mental Health. In this episode there is a lot a great and useful nuggets of information that could end up saving a life of someone who feels that they have no way out and have painted themselves into a corner. Chris now spends his time as an advocate to seek the help that is desperate...

We have come a long way since our critical incidents and talked to so many interesting and unique individuals. Our opinions have changed, our perspectives have been broadened, and our hearts have been opened. Its a daily struggle to fight the horrors of the trauma but with this podcast, our weekly group therapy session, we are able to work through our Suffering along with others to create a resilient community of stronger people who we believe are family. This is a touching and heartfelt episode...

THE CONCLUSION: PART 2 Bobby Crudele is a very magnetic and energetic personality who happens to be one of the best Law Enforcement Officers in North Jersey. Outwardly he appeared to be the life of the party. On the inside, Bobby was fighting a battle that he was losing slowly, the fight with the bottle. After chasing Alcohol down a very dangerous path, Bobby surrendered and asked for help, something that is very difficult for all Police to reach out for and admit. Once Bobby got the help he ne...

PART 1 Bobby Crudele is a very magnetic and energetic personality who happens to be one of the best Law Enforcement Officers in North Jersey. Outwardly he appeared to be the life of the party. On the inside, Bobby was fighting a battle that he was losing slowly, the fight with the bottle. After chasing Alcohol down a very dangerous path, Bobby surrendered and asked for help, something that is very difficult for all Police to reach out for and admit. Once Bobby got the help he needed, a new leas...

We have been waiting a long time to get my best friend in the studio. On this Episode of The Suffering Podcast we are sitting down with my son Patrick Donaldson to discuss the Suffering of Kids. As adults, we are very quick to forget some of the difficulties and struggles that young people go through. They are growing up in world that we cannot fathom. Patrick is a bright, smart, and driven kid who has a great outlook on life. His discipline is second to none. Our children look to us as their mo...

Now for the eagerly awaited conclusion to this tragic yet inspiring story of Pamela Vivirito. Part 2 details how Pamela has emerged from her life as an Abused Woman to show strength in her new life. With support from her friends and inner strength, Pamela is ready to tell her story to others in the hopes that lessons can be learned and her journey can change someone's future. Find Pamela Instagram The Suffering Podcast Family The Suffering Podcast Website Dented Development Project Heroes Relie...

Part 1 on this incredible story chronicles Pamela Vivirito's climb out of an abusive marriage after having Suffering the loss of a child at birth. The mindset of an abused person is so skewed from reality that they can't see a way out. Pamela has done it, come back from a life of trauma to show that although it is difficult it is possible. After years of Emotional, Physical, and Sexual abuse, Pamela is investing her emotional stability in her own resiliency. Find Pamela Instagram The Suffering ...

Heroin is one of the most destructive drugs on the planet. Once you feel the warm embrace its difficult to break free. Difficulty does not mean impossible. Andrew T. has done it and is proving that there is life after The Suffering of Heroin. Andrew has battled back from addiction to regrow and rejuvenate his life to meet his full potential. What you will find is that Andrew sees his trip down that rabbit hole as a necessity in his life to get to the position were he is now. When this episode ai...